Baking a loaf of bread turned frisbee...

My sweethearts,

It is November. The wind is really strong, and the rain is relentless. Hurricane Thomas has been to visit, and he is not a happy bunny. Walked down Shop Street at 6pm on a Sunday evening, and the street was deserted, it was the strangest thing.

I baked a loaf of bread in the oven last night. It's a mixture of a lovely wheat-free bread. The ingredients included oats, rice flour, rye flour and barley flour. But, with the size of the tin, and the size of the mixture, the result was a frisbee loaf. I'm really hopeful the next loaf will be thick enough to cut a good slice for a sandwich.





The last few weeks have been fun-filled, with * a short trip to Boston for my cousin Colin Daley's wedding to the beautiful Ida, * a weekend away to An Oireachtais Irish speaking festival in Killarney Co. Kerry, * and the Japanese Film Festival in Galway city.
So, am just looking forward to the next few weekends being all to myself. I have so much studying to do for the next few weeks, so am happy to have done all that socialising.

Being someone that goes from eating good to bad very frequently, it really can be a struggle to stick to the good side for lengths of time. I do try though. Was eating wheat bread a lot until last Thursday 4th, and have gone back to eating wheatfree bread. You can get a loaf of spelt bread from the bakery these days at between €2.40 to €3. There may be only a few slices, but you do feel full and happy after 2 slices of that bread.
The fillings I have been using the last few days have been: ham/tuna, grated light cheese, tomatoes, red and yellow peppers, chopped cabbage, grated carrot, and light butter/ light mayonnaise. You should not buy a lot of fresh produce if you are eating for one, having too much in the fridge can actually turn you off eating the produce because there is too much selection. It makes me rebel and end up eating something bad.
If I need a snack, I will have multigrain rice cakes in the cupboard, and top it with a tiny bit of grated cheese and tiny ham/tuna. Or, there will be a treatsize chocolate in the fridge for me. I can't buy a large pack of treatsize chocolates to portion them out, as I would probably eat the whole pack in 1 or 2 days (this is from experience).

Am looking for information on either an Android phone or a Japanese style phone in Ireland. There is not much information to be found on the Japanese style in Ireland, which is really saddening, because they are the coolest phone. As for Android, it has been on the market in Ireland for the last few months, but still very little information on what phones the Android OS is on.

More news tomorrow... M x

Closed eyes, full of visions of colour...

Hey there,

The days will always fly by if we don't use our days wisely. Which is why we all feel the time is flying. I ask any Irish person, and they agree with me. What does that say about the Irish people? A word I've said a few times describing people this week, "pessimistic". I must be one of those people myself, at times.

What seems to be happening to the Irish state of mind? People constantly saying that our morale is at an all-time low, wouldn't that inspire us to stand up and do something about it?

I haven't been to the gym in two days, feeling the slowness gathering in my bones. Although I did well today, a nice ham, edam and salad sandwich, a vegetarian lasagne with veg quarter pounder burger, a bowl of popcorn, and some mini choco bars. Feel tired though. Made it to the two lectures of the day and did an hour of study, spent the rest of the day in my own thoughts, listening to various crappy television shows while cosying up to a duvet on an armchair.

If I wanted to, I would sleep all day and all night, no bother.

On Saturday, I went to visit my best friend Shane and his family for dinner, and afterwards, prepared myself to look like an 80's chick, legwarmers, bracelets, earrings, bright colours all around. I felt great! I wish we could always dress up in 80's style. No effort, throw anything on with as many layers and different colours as you can possibly wear. It was a brilliant night out!

On the 17th of October, I will be flying over to Boston, MA, with my parents to attend my cousin's wedding. Am so excited to be visiting, to see all my relatives over there. Last time I'd been to Boston was at 18 years of age, and it wasn't the happiest time of my life. Teenagers can be a handful, especially when away from parents for two months. It was definitely an experience though. But this time, I feel more grown up and responsible for my own Boston experience. There will be independent sightseeing involved, and excessive funage with my cousins, here's hoping.

My stomach has just told me I've killed it with the food earlier and the lack of walking. Am a bad girl!

xx

Apparently what style I write like... Hmmm....

I write like
Cory Doctorow

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!

There is nothing worse than sitting in bed, drinking tea and eating custard creams, flicking through Facebook, Twitter and Gmail, and realising, why am I doing this AGAIN, ALL DAY?

MSN, mostly to be seen as "Appear Offline", so nobody thinks, "OMG, she's always online! Does she have anything else to do?". Although people have already commented on numerous occasions, just how much they've seen me online..

And, I started out so good in June, plans worked out as to what to do and where to go. I learned to play the tin-whistle a bit, and I walked everyday. I lost a little weight, and that made me happy. But then...

Low emotions, a few drinking nights out, and back to being a lazy, unemployed 27 year old, unsure of her future in anything. Why do the littlest things distract me? People tugging on my emotional strings, trying to borrow my love and the little money I had. Looking at people thinking, oh wow, they have a job, a social life, and a lover. Why can't I have that? Because I've already given up.

I've given up so many, many, many times. I try again, and then I give up again. What happened to those success affermations (oh dear, I can't even spell properly anymore)...

Never ever EVER give up!

Clear your mind of the word CAN'T!

Do what you can, where you are, with what you have!

Hugs, M x

Broke Days and all that..

So... It's the last day of July, and I'm basically without money. Yeah, pretty much broke, still without a job, and might not even go back to college (due to said fund shortage). That's the scandal now with myself, but not to fear, something will turn up.

My CV looks as weak as ever. Afraid to give it out to people now because of all that paper I'm wasting with people not even looking at the ones I've given out. What are we expected to do? Keep going around in a circle until someone actually notices your potential in a future career? *Sigh*

Lately, a few ex-boyfriends have been messing with my head. It's along the same pattern: I love you, I really do, Let's make this work, But we won't be going out, and I want to have sex with you.
I mean, REALLY! COME ON! Honestly, because I'm so nice, they expect after all that happened, that I'd be an easy lay? It's disappointing to say the least.

Urgh, please, Mr. Right, I'm still waiting for you to friggin' pop up, and actually have a good old conversation and fun times with. I'm a decent, nice person like.

Oh, made €10 on the horses this week! Woo hoo! And it was the first time betting. Still don't understand it, but I won, so I'm happy out. Smiles. x

Love my sister x

She turned a quarter of a century today, and we're about to head out for a few drinks. She's always acted like the older one, but I love her to bits. I wouldn't change a single thing.



Breda and me, June 2007
Happy Birthday hunni xxx Love u x