Tuesday, 5 April 2011


How can someone still feel like they're frightened of the world?
I had hoped I would be brave and take on the world by now. But, am in my late twenties, and I seem to have closed up to the world.
I hate my body. I eat everything I see. I try to be good for a few weeks, but then I get bored, and eat again.
Whenever people look at me, I see their eyes, their mouth, the look of disgust. It frightens me, and it hurts me.
Sure there are people out there saying "Change it, Change it!", but it's so as easy as that. You don't understand. You don't realise the fear, the scared feeling. The cocoon I have made for myself, it is safe, it will not harm me.

It will never hurt me.