Monday, 20 July 2009

Memories of my Grandmothers...

A nice thought strung into my mind as I woke up this morning... I remembered Mamo's soft hands... She had the softest hands I'd ever felt...

I had two grandmothers growing up, one we called "Mamo" who lived beside us, and the other called "Mamo Gavin", which took us 20 minutes to drive to her place. They were the nicest people in the world you could ever meet. But, then, everyone's Grandmother is the nicest you could ever meet...

They were both sweet souls. Both hardly drank, both were always either baking or cooking, both fell ill... I know Mamo Gavin passed away when I was 16, and it was a few years before Mamo followed. Wish they could have seen how we turned out, they'd be so proud.
They both suffered with their weight, like myself, and I know they both had a sweet tooth, so I know where those parts are coming from... Giggle.

Mamo was the one who'd sneak us a buttered sandwich behind her back so our parents wouldn't see, it was the really creamy kind of butter we didn't have. I used to love that. She'd be so proud when we sang or played the tin-whistle, or danced, clapping her hands cheering us on. She'd also sneak us sweeties. As she was diabetic, she couldn't have any, but she loved giving them. Or a few pounds to spend on ourselves...

What I remember about Mamo Gavin, was the way she held herself, always smartly dressed, always smiling. She used to bake cakes all the time, and she was so careful about what she ate. I remember she loved Philidelpia spread, I used to think it was some posh cream cheese. Mum never had any, and I thought it was for adults. She also used to have Wagon Wheels in the cupboard, and would give us one as a treat at times.

I'm always told I look like both grandmothers, as well as my mother. It's such a nice compliment. I hope I can be as strong as them in the future.


Sunday, 19 July 2009

My memories... My thoughts... The woods....

At times, I think back on memories that bother me a bit... And it does bother me.

One time, I was walking into the woods with an ex, it was one of the last days we'd spend together, and I like being quiet walking thru the woods, taking things in..
This place was beautiful. I don't know any woods near me, and have only been in one or two, so this was really great..
And a little bit into it, he asked me why I wasn't talking. I said I didnt know, I didn't think there was something wrong about not talking to someone you cared about in these beautiful woods, especially when it would be the last time we'd see eachother for a while (later on, it turned out we'd never see eachother again).

But, it seemed to bother him, which made me upset. I was having a great time in the woods with this guy, and he wasn't. On the way back, he told me to stop crying and walked in front of me. He wasn't holding my hand, I embarrassed him when people were walking past...

:( What did I do....

Today, I was watching this old RTE documentry, it was about this writer that loved to walk thru the woods. But, she said she'd bring someone who liked to walk beside her, but not to talk, but to enjoy the quiet of the woods, to listen to the little rivers running thru the place, to listen to the birds singing, and let all those worries flow away.

And I thought, wow, I wasn't in the wrong.

It just makes you think...

Monday, 6 July 2009

Arts... Gordon... Food... Kittens... All connected...

Kind of... (Giggles)

No, not really. But, am in a happy mood these days.

First off, I accepted an Arts course in the National University of Ireland, Galway, today. Am so thrilled to have this chance, but not sure what I'll study yet. Would like something that could help me further my chances with Special Needs children, or young children in general, but I can try to do evening courses in those areas while studying Arts.
Wow, am going to be a student, at a university... So strange. Dreading the fees, but will work it out. Got to look at grants yet. Typical me, leaving it until last minute.

He went missing for a few days, but he's back, and he's mine! Giggle. Jellybean for Gordybaby xxxxx <3

Cut down on junk food the last four days, meaning less white chocolate, less biscuits, less tortilla chips. Felt really low the last few weeks and stopped going to Weightwatchers, but am back on my way again. Drinking a litre bottle of water every day as well.
Will go back to WW when I feel I'm ready to, in a few weeks. They says they dont judge if you've got up, but its the tone of their voice... Just put me off track for a while.

And, on a sad note, Marshy lost one of her kittens. The baby died at some point yesterday afternoon, and we have yet to bury the little creature. It's sad to lose life, even if you've only known the spirit for a few days.
God Bless you little white kitten in the sky...


Thursday, 2 July 2009

God Bless you Michael J... x

Only now does the whole world see how special you and your music were... These are two of my favourite videos...

Michael Jackson (August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009)

God bless you! x

Earth Song

Man in the Mirror

Also watch this video, the 1st part of 8 videos, where he did an exclusive interview with Oprah Winfrey 14 years after he had stopped doing interviews.

Wednesday, 1 July 2009

Marshmallow had 4 lovely white kittens....

These were taken this morning.... The little mother had these cute babies around the afternoon of June 30th (yesterday)... First time ever seeing kittens being born....

Smiles... x