Wednesday, 31 December 2008

The End of a Shitty Year...

Just feel like jumping up and down...

So far, I've two of my Resolutions started, which is:

1: Booked my Driver Theory
About to join a Yoga Class

There will be more added and I hope to fulfill them. Just happy to have those two sorted.
At the moment, Róisín is playing baseball on the Wii, Breda's on her way to her boyfriend's parents for a few days, my parents are sorting out dinner, and I'm writing a piece here. I've a ton of spots on my face from the chocolate overloaded week (sorry, maybe 2 weeks) that I've had at home. Haven't gone out drinking once, which I don't mind. If I had good drinking company, I'd enjoy it, but I don't have that.

Santa got me cool slippers I wear about the house all the time, so comfy.
Also love the Wii so much, we got Super Mario Bros on the Shopping Channel at 500 points (5euro), and we've a ton of other games to get too. All the old favourites are on the Channel, like Megaman, Columns, Sonic the Hedgehog, Pac-Man, Shinobi, and Golden Axe. Used to have the Nintendo NES and the Sega Mega Drive when I was younger, so kinda recognise a lot of the old games... Ah, memories... ^_^/

Still have no job. Really really REALLY have to do something about this. It's just ridiculous now. Hate the stigma attached to it, like people think you do nothing, and it's just not true.

It's going to be a better year, 2009 is going to be my year. It really is...


Wednesday, 24 December 2008

A Very Merry Christmas...

... and a Happy New Year to all x x x

Loads of Love...

Maire x

Tuesday, 16 December 2008

Christmas lights and Candy canes...

There we go, that time of year again. Those familiar songs are playing again, the days are growing short, the cats are playing with the brightly lit Christmas lights.. Oh yes, it must be Christmas! That 'happy' time of year. For contemplating our little lives, to see who loves us and thinks of us. To look over those hills and see the wonder of this world...

Yes. I feel that at times. Not everyone is happy all the time though.

Am still at home in Connemara, planning on going back to the city tomorrow to do a little bit of shopping, and a little bit of spending time with friends. Picked certain days for friends so they don't clash, and I can dedicate all my energy on chatting to each of them.

Shane, the most wondrous friend of them all, will be turning 25 on Wednesday (tomorrow), yippereeee! Getting him a little cake with sparkly candles (hopefully), and gonna just chill in with him Thursday night bitching and watching DVDs...

I'm unsure of Simmy yet, either seeing her Friday or any day after Saturday night. She's the loveliest person you could meet, a little darling. Met her when we were working in Supermacs years ago, and she's since married and had two gorgeous children. She always looked out for me too, when getting me a job away from Supermacs. I'd only known her a few weeks, and she'd gotten me a job with her in Boston Fashions, ah the funniest time. Havent seen her in two years now, it'll be good to catch up...

Then, on Saturday, I'll be meeting Sandra and little Alex for the day. Am babysitting Alex for his Mummy that night, cos she's gonna relax with her friends, so he better be good ^_^ We always have the best laugh together, she's a mad one. Wouldn't change her for anything tho!

Oh, and guess what we got for the whole family for Christmas?

The excellent, fantastic, incredible... Nintendo Wii! Yippee!
Well, we split the cost 5 ways, but we got it ^_^ Oh yeah! The sisters and myself ended up playing with it last night, just to give it a 'test run'. Loads of stuff with it for €325... Three games, 2 controls, loads of accessories... Money well spend! We're supposed to be wrapping it up tonight..............

Hmm...... ^_^

Thursday, 11 December 2008

Coming up to Christmas...

How's everyone been?

Am at home for Christmas, which is nice. Haven't picked up any presents for anyone yet, as Id to pay a huge dentist bill. And with no work, am just stretching for now. Tough, but positive.

My weight is very bad, recently had to cop on again. Afraid to weigh myself, but feels like 15stone. Confidence is low, but I'm good, really.

They finally picked up my dead laptop today. Took them long enough! Should be back after Christmas though. Nevermind, this is the season for family and friends... :) I don't need a laptop for that...

Thinking of buying chocolate and biscuits for everyone, the nice ones. I wonder would people see it as the thought that counts? Hmm.

I'd love chocolates for christmas... Mmmm :)
... A bit of romance too, maybe. Haha.


Saturday, 29 November 2008

A few photos of my sister Breda's Graduation 28th of November...

It was a brilliant day :)....

This is of all the family... Me on the right, if you didnt know...

This photo of all the siblings... Colm, Roisin, Breda, Seosamh, and me...

The two sisters... Gorgeous x

Breda and the proud parents... x

Monday, 17 November 2008

This weekend felt dead...

Thank god thats over with!

Nothing happened to me all weekend! I was going mental. Ended up watching three movies, "Nineteen Eighty Four", "Animal Farm", and "Thunderball". All very good. Also have read halfway thru "Angels in My Hair" by Lorna Byrne, really enjoying it...

Won €5 on Saturday, very lucky :) Was happy with a bit of luck x

Had a great few days before that. On Thursday, I ended up getting 5 books, the one I'm currently reading, as well as, "Thanks for the Memories", "The Book Thief", "The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas" and "Life of Pi". Also, bought a Kodak camera, been wanting one for ages, but dont know what photos to take now... *giggle*

On Friday night, I went for a gorgeous 3 course meal with friends at Mairtin and Thomas' house. Mairtin had cooked for us, and it was a lovely meal. There was me and Shane, Thomas and Rachel, Mairtin and Hazel G. While Hazel H. sat watching us eat, the poor hun, she wasnt feeling well. A gang of them were going to London the next morning, but wasnt really jealous. I wanna go somewhere sunny in the future, get some rays. Mmmmm.

Gonna go back to my book reading now, seeing as I cant get back to sleep... x

Tuesday, 11 November 2008

Treated myself today...

I don't spend much on myself these days, as Ive to keep whatever money I have, but it was a good day today.
The women at the library were so lovely to me, I'd brought back a book I've kept for 2weeks overdue today. I told them I'd pay whatever the charge was, and the lady told me it was fine, she gave me a few days grace. It was really lovely of her. They were really helpful to me when I was studying books there for my Special Needs course, so they remember me ^_^
And sure enough, I got 3 Stars with the scratchcard, so here's hoping I'll be spinning the wheel in the future *giggle*

I was really happy today, so treated myself to buying various accessories in New Look and Penneys. Was having a really hard time finding a new belt for my jeans (I'm a large size 18/20), so its torture finding belts for myself. There was 1 in New Look but only a code sellotaped on it, written in hand. So, I asked a lady there if she knew the price and if any other belts like this were in stock. She checked for me, and when she came back, she said that it had been discontinued a while ago, and said I could take it for free if I wanted. I was shocked, offered her money for it, even for a charity, but she insisted it was fine. Thanked her, and told her I was buying accessories here anyways, to which she smiled at me, and said "Enjoy that!".

...Which I did. He he.

Nightclothes, Scarfs, Bags, Purses, Bras, Socks, Hairbands... Whats a girl to do! ^_^

Oh, and my free Belt... Good karma.

Monday, 10 November 2008

Good Strong Teeth, but still addicted to Chocolate...

Yes, I went to the dentist today. It had been nearly 3 years since my last checkup, when I had to extract a tooth out (I've two extracted teeth, not really missed, gorgeous smile anyways...) ^_^

So, after a good clean and checkup, they wouldnt have thought I'd had a sweet tooth, even though I ate tons of chocolate, but truthfully told them anyways. They gave me a talk about how important it is to floss (which, I promise, am starting on now) and use Listerine, but to come in in a few weeks for 1 filling. I couldn't believe it, was expecting 10 fillings at least! I have strong teeth, but I tend to grind a lot, which is a problem as well, so they're going to have an xray done, to see what can be done to change that.
Really found the whole thing interesting. People forget how valuable teeth will be as you get older, and the younger you can tackle properly looking after them, the better. Am blessed to have a magnificent smile, and got to look after it... *Bing**Bing*

Met up with Shane for a 15 minute chat, was a bit of a speedy thing, because he wanted to get the next bus home after his Writing class in town. A whole gang of them are heading off to London this coming weekend, I decided against it. Had enough of London for a while, besides, saving money for Christmas... ^_^

Oh, checked the Lotto website, and I've gone and won a €3 scratchcard, so yippee, I'm so collecting that tomorrow! Pray I win a quarter of a million! *Giggles*

Sunday, 9 November 2008

Suile Solas... A memory from the past...

'Bright Eyes'... Always good memories.... Thanks Darragh. Keep smiling! x

Happy Days... Smiling...

Just relaxed tonight, as usual... It was good, a few drinks, had a good night, chatted to a few people online.

Saw Zig and Zag on The Tubridy Tonight show, they were so funny. Used to watch them when I was very little, two alien puppets. Giggle. Oh the childhood memories... Big smiles.

Thought of my Guardian Angel today. How she's looked after me. Am so grateful of the loving family I have, the few friends, and my good health... Am so lucky to be alive and not homeless on the streets... My love life was never the best, but everything happens for a reason. My heart is very big. Am always there for you....

Friday, 7 November 2008

Einstein The Parrot...

Einstein the Parrot

Please check out this video, it's the loveliest and funniest video I've seen in ages ^_^ Big smiles!

Happy Birthday Mum!

Today's your day! Love you x x x <3

Thursday, 6 November 2008

Thursday night in, someone callin me on my Self Pity....

I find the meaniest people...

Knew this guy for a long while, we chat online. Made me feel guilty tonight cos I didnt want to meet him for a drink. He hardly talks to me about his life. Told him I'm covered in spots and fat, and he just told me to 'enjoy livin in your SELF PITY! ur gona hav a sad life'. Lovely person....

Thanks people.

Sunday, 2 November 2008

Mustard, Super Troopers, and Halloween Weirdness...

The days seem so unbearably cold, I find myself complaining like an old woman. Planning on buying a load of jumpers next weekend, have been wearing 3 t-shirts, a scarf, gloves, and a hoodie around the place, not the most attractive look going for me... Although, I'm not the most attractive anyways...

It was lovely to see Shane on Thursday. We wandered around Shop Street, looking for ideas for birthdays and Christmas coming up. The queues from the costume shops were long and packed. Some people were even dressed up the day before Halloween. Strange... He brought me to this restaurant called 'Mustard', which does really different burgers and pizza's, like an Ostrich burger, things like that. Got myself an Indian Spiced Lamb burger, very nice indeedie. Then we went to a poetry reading, where Shane read his poem for the first time to an audience. He did fairly well, was proud of him... We visited Hazel and Oisin after that. It was pretty late, so Ois had gone to bed, and we all watched Super Troopers. Just hilarious!

How was everyone's Oiche Shamhna? This was the first year ever it didn't feel like Halloween for me. I was thinking of visiting the parents that day, and Dad had said he would pick me up, but just wasn't sure if I was going home that day. So, I went to Aldi to buy a Halloween brack, but of course, too late, none left. Got them a Fruit loaf (and some yummy white chocolate for myself), and walked back. Bag was packed, made Dad some warm Meatballs, cos he'd been working in the cold all day, and the heat in his van was broken. Once he'd eaten a bit, we were on our way home, with a duvet over us in the van!

It takes about 1 hour from Galway city to my home in Connemara. So, we'd made it half way when suddenly, the van conked out. Dad had to quickly find a safe place to park the van. I'd thought the tyre had burst or something, but Dad said something about a Timer Belt (don't ask me). So, there we were, in our duvet, talking and keeping warm, while Mum and Roisin were on their way to pick us up...

Once we'd gotten home, which was around 8:30, we had a little dinner, and everyone was tired. It didn't feel like Halloween at all. No scary movies or anything like that. Think I even went to bed before 11pm... Next year, I'll have to get a load of scary DVDs for the night...

Things have been good since. Mum got us a brack, on All Saints Day (the day after Halloween). Giggle, it was a bit late for it, but it tasted gorgeous :)

Breda came down as well, she's been having bad pains in her tooth, and can't figure out what it is, as she's braces on. Feel so bad for her, she just finished her paper, and gets her results (oh, she got a 2.1 in her Masters last week, yippeeeeeee), and now shes in pain. :(
She was showing me the photos of her teeth and how they've changed so much since she's had braces. Don't know, I always thought she was pretty before her braces. Think it's a confidence thing, she always looked confident. But, I'm always told I'm blessed with perfect teeth, although not looked after them well...

Friday, 31 October 2008

Oiche Shamhna...

Happy Halloween everyone... Don't overdo it like these poor kids...

Thursday, 23 October 2008

The Sound of Thunder...

Isn't it the most horrible day today? Listening it through my bedroom window, am staying well cosy inside. Being the child that I am, been checking out this website the past few days...
Has a lot of flash cartoons and games submitted by everyone. I've always liked Anime, but Horror and Noir collections are in this too, and they're so interesting to watch.

The trees blowing fiercely to the wind, the coldness of the air, the rain crashing down... I wish I could get away to somewhere warm... For my health if not anything else...


Monday, 20 October 2008

Rant coming up....

Now, this really gets me. I get if people don't like my blogs, great.. It's not everyone's taste... But, Do not tell me how I should feel, or who I should get over. Oh no no no no. I will not respond well to it. I feel what I feel, and I express it in my own way. "Oh do cheer up Maire." will not help in ANY way!

As for another rant, I was in Aldi on Thursday, paying for some items. The nice girl asked me for some form of ID for my little €2 bottle of Rosé wine, in which I produced my Passport. Seeing as my Garda Age Card is refused in every area of Galway, I never bring it out with me.
But, at this time, one of the security men passed me on his way to their staff room when he saw my passport being looked at, and warned me to have my Age Card next time. I laughed, thinking it was a joke, but he was serious. Saying it was ridiculous, and that my Age Card has repeatedly been refused, he said the Passport will not work in this store again.

Honestly, make up your mind. I hate bringing my Passport with me to places, but I'm either refused with one or the other...

Breathe in, breathe out... Calm....

Sunday, 19 October 2008

A Quiet Weekend...

Not much to say really. The babysitting went really well, and had a bed there to sleepover, so it was grand. Spent the weekend listening to music and watching 'Samantha Who' episodes online... OH JOY! Lol.

( Monday 09:20am... P.s. Enjoyed a nice bottle of Rosé wine just after writing that short blog... Really relaxed today! :D )


Friday, 17 October 2008

"Just a Girl" - No Doubt (Lyrics)

Take this pink ribbon off my eyes,
I'm exposed
And it's no big surprise.
Don't you think I know
Exactly where I stand,
This world is forcing me
To hold your hand.

'Cause I'm just a girl, little 'ol me
Don't let me out of your sight.
I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite
So don't let me have any rights.
Oh...I've had it up to here!

The moment that I step outside
So many reasons
For me to run and hide
I can't do the little things I hold so dear
'Cause it's all those little things
That I fear

'Cause I'm just a girl I'd rather not be
'Cause they won't let me drive late at night.
I'm just a girl,
Guess I'm some kind of freak
'Cause they all sit and stare
With their eyes.
I'm just a girl,
Take a good look at me
Just your typical prototype

Oh...I've had it up to here! I making myself clear?

I'm just a girl...
I'm just a girl in the world...
That's all that you'll let me be!

I'm just a girl, living in captivity
Your rule of thumb
Makes me worry some,
I'm just a girl, what's my destiny?
What I've succumbed to Is making me numb.
I'm just a girl, my apologies
What I've become is so burdensome,
I'm just a girl, lucky me
Twiddle-dum there's no comparison.

Oh...I've had it up to..
Oh...I've had it up to...
Oh...I've had it up to here!

Wednesday, 15 October 2008

Galway jobs... SNA jobs.... Just not there!

I keep up to date on all the jobs coming up in the papers, and it's just so bad that no-one sounds like they believe you, it gets pretty depressing. The impossiblity of finding work in Galway (unless you're friends with someone in a job, and they promise you a spot in the future) is just the way things are at this present time. There are many websites with people complaining of the same problems, especially in The City of The Tribes. A sad state of affairs...

With the problems of the new Ireland Budget, and Bank insecurities, I am not alone in this. Am also very stubborn, as I'm never moving from Galway ever again for work. Not a possiblity for me I'm afraid. Galway is my home, and I love it here. It's hard to remain so positive when everyone around you gives you pessimism (doubt)...

Trying to keep positive... x

Monday, 13 October 2008

iPod Nation...

I woke up this morning, to see my little sister saying Hi to me. My parents and her come in to visit every so often, so it was lovely to see her popping her head in... But, what she wanted to show me was even cooler...
It was the new version of the iPod Nano 16gb, in Pink, for €189. The sexiest thing ever! lol. She told me if you shake it, it shuffles the songs, soooo class! So, we were showing off our iPods to eachother, mine being a very cute new version of the iShuffle 2gb, for €65. She couldn't get over how cute mine was, and I soooo wanted hers...

So, now, the iPod have gotten more affordable for hard working people. God, this time last year, wouldnt have dreamed of joining the Apple posie. I have to say though, they are the easiest devices I've ever used, talking as far as having the iTouch for a month last Christmas before losing it... (I know, I kick myself everyday for that...)
Happy days!


Sunday, 12 October 2008

Dreams... Is it just me or are my dreams more vivid than ever?

(an image of the 'Tower of Babylon')

The past two weeks have been crazy. All sorts of dreams kept coming into my mind, there were nights when I'd wake up and be afraid someone was around me, watching me... Some are good dreams, but some stranger dreams have made me curl into my duvet.. How do you feel? When you have these, do you feel they drain your energy for the rest of the day? Like, you've been really living these dreams, and now you have to live the living day?

Some were really special dreams... Like, there's one of me, Dad, Breda (my sis), and Julia (my cousin), and we were all in Mamo (Granny) Maolain's sitting room.. Julia, who has Spina Bifida in real life, was in this dream, happy, talking to us and smiling. She hugged my Dad and Breda, but I was unsure at first. She greeted me with the warmest smile, came to me, and hugged me so tight. After that, I felt so close to her.. I haven't seen her for 8years or so now, she lives with my aunt in Boston.. Was the warmest feeling waking up that morning...


Shane's story... (with music soundtrack provided)

Just finished a short story Shane wrote, that I've kept from him for over 2 months or so (sorry!).. Was sure I wasn't in the right mood to read it, but he wants it back tomorrow, so I was definitely going to read it... And I really enjoyed it.

It was a short story, with a soundtrack containing 18 songs, which you had to play at certain parts of the story. It really brought the story to life, it was like I was there living in the life of the people I was reading about. Very touching story, found myself crying at the end.

Wish more people would write stories like that, influenced by their favourite artists. Loved the songs he chose, artists like Evanescence, Audioslave, Hot Chip, etc. Makes you take life in...

Early nights, and all that jazz...

How ya be today! :)

This morning, I woke up to hear the immersion doing the loudiest noises, thought it was gonna blow open. Someone forgot to turn it off last night. Luckily, nothing major happened, but it got me awake. Decided to order grocaries off This site was soooooo slow, it took 4 hours to do my €22 list, then i find out it wouldn't deliver on Sundays. Swear to God, I'm so blonde! :D Eventually got ready, put on my iShuffle, and skipped down to Aldi and Dunnes. And, I think I did better than Tesco in saving €1 for myself... Giggle.

Been going to bed around 10pm or so most nights the past week, happy with that considering I've the internet again. Just spend the day today on that stupid Tesco site, listening to music, and reading friend's blogs I havent read in ages..

Trying to save up to buy the last two Cecelia Ahern books, "Thanks for the Memories" and "The Gift". Saw her on The Late Late Show on Friday, wow, she's so nice. All her books seem to make me laugh and cry, which is why I have all her book. One Christmas, Shane got me a signed autographed book of hers, he said she was lovely and a petite person. Hope to see her myself someday.

On Friday, I went to meet up with Sandra for a tea. She wanted help with picking out tops for herself. She didnt expect to buy 4 tops though, giggle. All my doing! She looked gorgeous in all of them, so very happy with that. Plus, asked her to help me pick out clothes and shoes to buy for her little boy Alex's birthday present, was overly enjoying myself, bought too much, giggle. It was good to do something nice for someone though.

Am gonna start aiming to lose my weight again over the next few months. Had a bad few months and just gained weight. Can't join this week, but next week, I'm going to join Weightwatchers. The doctor said I needed routine in my life, cos I just still feel very lost. Am confident I'll find myself again though.

In the next few weeks, I should hear if I've passed my Certificate in Special Needs Education. Not been thinking about it, but it's something to look forward to.

So, if you want to ask me any questions, leave me a comment, and I will answer as honestly as I can... Keep smiling x

Saturday, 11 October 2008

October Blues...


Am back, with an even sadder blog. Ha ha. Will try to keep you updated on my progress during the winter months coming up. God, its been winter all year to be honest.

Was telling a friend, I dont remember taking this long to get over someone before. It's weird. But, it pretty much takes time. So, to be sure, it's all up from here.

Got my iShuffle playing away, the handiest device I ever got! Drag and drop, drag and drop. The fun of it :)

Internet is back and running. Got a 3G PayAsYouGo broadband, very cool so far. Hope to get the Vlogs up and running too soon, must get a good webcam though, the Trust webcam wasn't the best choice!

Hugs and Cuddles... x

Saturday, 2 August 2008

Just got my Tattoo done!

Wow, that was just so cool. I'll upload a photo soon, but it looks gorgeous :D

(12th October Update) Just putting up the tattoo photo... Love it... x

Friday, 25 July 2008

Nancy Sinatra "Bang Bang"

If you liked Kill Bill, you'll know this song... :)

Flu's, Cinema, and a Space of a Life...

..."How does it feeeeeeel.... in my armmmmssssss....."

I like that song :)

Been ill the last week, cos so much stuff has happened, I just felt so low. Today I feel a little better.
Saw 5 movies the past week, omg, crazy! Angelina actually looks gorgeous in "Wanted", always hated her til that... Mmmm! lol.
Also saw "Hancock", "Batman: The Dark Knight", "Kung Fu Panda" and "Wall-E". All of them were really good. Did see three of the five movies on the same day... I know, weird, lol :D

Send just a few CVs to different schools but they're not opening again til September, so I feel so bored. Reading a lot, not listening to much music as the laptop's finall away and getting fixed... Miss the net!

Hugs x

Friday, 27 June 2008

Fe Fi Fo Fum...


Ahemm..... Yes. I is writing a piece, lol.

Just saying hello to anyone who's wondering. Had a tough few months, which is why I haven't written. People know I love to ramble about anything, ANYTHING, that's on my mind, But, it bothered some people, so I stopped.

So, life with me so far. My exams on Special Needs Education will be next Wed 2nd July. Am so excited, cant wait. The girls are all going out after to have a few drinks, so am gonna get plastered, well, not so bad cos I dont know them that well. Giggle...

On Thursday, me and Shane have decided to check out the Asian Tea House in Middle Street (i think) in Galway city (it's beside Mixers Bar). Supposed to be lovely authentic food and teas there. Then, he's going to show me the Kenny Gallery cos I havent seen it yet. He says I'll love some of the works there, should be some good Surrealist imagery there. Loverly! :)

We're gonna meet up again on Saturday in Carraroe, cos I've not been out there since last year's brilliant Shanie House Party (that was mad stuff). Oh definitely gonna have some fun, lol. Think its me, Shane, Tomas, Mairtin, don't know who else. Wanna see how bad Club J's gotten (its like €10 in the door now, he he).

My laptop has not been sent away yet, I needed it to write some projects. But, hopefully this week, I'll pick up an external hard drive, its half price in Argos, so hope its still there. Put all my stuff there.

There were some really bad flash floods in Galway and Cork last week, scary stuff. Am living in Galway, but was near the sea, so it wasn't as bad. The city looked really bad though. All through the week as well, god the rain is pouring! The house will flow away eventually...

I used the Juicer in town yesterday, borrowed it off mum for a week (cos they've not used it yet), and its brilliant. Yummy Apple and Orange, with loads of zest (left the peels on)... Gorgeous! Mum bought it at Lidl, gonna try to keep an eye out for another one, think its around €40. Worth it if you'll use fruit all the time...

Lol, erm, if you've any questions, just leave them in the comments list. Otherwise, have a smiley happy day.

Yours, hugs & cuddles, Maire x

Tuesday, 20 May 2008

Eurovision is a joke!

For fuck's sake!
East Europe and Russia got thru the first Semi-Finals tonight, and am pure pissed off.
Ok, so I'm glad Poland got in, voted for them, they're like us... But, most these countries arent even in the European Union, and they still get to go into the Eurovision Song Contest and throw out any change of people that actually live in the EU, like Ireland!

They were all booing at the end of Dustin's song. Dont worry, they didnt get the humour behind the song...

Tuesday, 6 May 2008


I'm missing my boyfriend very much the last few weeks, it's very hard, but I really miss him.
I miss the guy that used to write the long silly emails and txts with the millions of x's... the occasional <3's he send me that made the day even brighter... the way he used to flirt in his messages... the long passionate kisses when we met up, the cuddles, and holding his hand... the way his txts were always so sweet and romantic, so i could imagine being beside him when we were so far away... there are so many things I miss about him... Am I not doing all I should be to keep it going? Has he just stopped cos I've stopped? Feel like a demanding girlfriend, and I dont want to feel like this. All I want is him and his time. I miss him.

Sunday, 4 May 2008

Easy to Fall for Someone Anywhere in the World...

This thought has been on my mind now the past week. The Internet's 15th birthday was celebrated this (or was it last) week, and with all the meeting points online and the ways that people search for friendship and romance, that it's truly easy to fall for someone, from across the waters, or indeed, the other side of the world.

Been an internet geek for about 10 years now, being a regular Yahoo! chatroom visitor in the middle of the night when my parents would be asleep upstairs. Had quite a few arguments just convincing my Mum to let me on for "5 more minutes". How the world has changed. No written letters, people disappearing without any contact, unless they have an MSN/AOL account and an email address. If you don't have those, you're lost to the world forever.

I try to remain a strictly Irish to Irish chatter these days, used to have internet friends from America and Australia even, but most of the internet people turn out to be "weirdos". Went through my MSN account the last day and deleted half the contacts, people that I wouldn't talk to anymore. I try to keep people that say a Hi every once in a while, it's nice.

I was never a talkative person. People thought I was snobby cos I was quiet. I heard some people still do think of me that way. Doesn't matter.
I expressed my thoughts through my diaries, my music, and always got lost in my daydreams. Still do. The internet and my diaries got me to express the mad looney person that I could be, if I could open up to people. Find it very hard though.
My "so-called" friends bullied and teased me, but I hav gained a few real friends throughout life. I never got into sports, stayed indoors. Everyone is different.

You could find yourself starting to chat to someone in Japan or Argentina or Australia, and before you know it, you've fallen head over heels, and both of you want to meet up. Ok, so it works some of the time, I've heard stories, but it doesnt always. You could lose touch, lose the internet, get busy, life takes over, relationships suffer. It's all about communication. If you lose that, your heart breaks. Don't start on something unless you're prepared to work at it. Romance dies if you don't work at it.

It was such a lovely day today, tried to study but its so hard to study, not used to it yet. Theres so much to take in. Afraid I won't be able to take it all in. It's very hard to find a school to approach as well, just to survey the Special Needs Assistant for a week. You might need a Garda Clearance letter, which I'm hoping they won't need, cos it's supposed to take months to get one. The tutor says it should be ok.

Wednesday, 30 April 2008

A bit too quiet is strange...

Hey there.

So, the boyfriend was telling me he was missing my blogs, and thought I'd write a few bits. First off, let me show you this video I saw a few days ago, just caught me when I felt a bit low. x


First off, hi.
The past week.

Well, twas brill spending time with Shane last week, even though it felt short. Feels like I saw him two weeks ago, instead of a week ago.
Also, I paid off my course, woo hoo. So, no worries there.

My PCOS was driving me up the wall last week, cos felt my face was like a hairy person, so I got it waxed on Tuesday morning (couldn't get any other appointment).

PCOS (Poly Cystic Ovaries Syndrome)... Basically, its not very uncommon for women, and there's not a lot of information out there for it either.
The main factor is that women with this condition produce more male hormones than women's, so physical features in some women would be noticed like excess hairs on their facial area, or being overweight.
For example, with me, I'd get excess hair on my chin & neck. Usually I'd control this with waxing the area. At the start, about 2 years ago now, it was very bad when I started waxing. Used to wax every 3 days. Now, its every 2.5/3 weeks. When I first had this at age 13, I didn't know I had PCOS, and I used to use an electric shaver on my face. So, it's been thru a lot of torture.
You also crave sugary or sweet things, in particular chocolate, which you're supposed to cut down on.

Have not been on medication for it for a few months, because it didnt agree with me, and there's not a lot of other medication out there for the condition. Been eating so much chocolate as well, so its very hard to control.
So, in the next few years, would really consider laser treatment. This is the only other option for me, because my face has already gone thru so much damage the last 12 years, and this is why I get paranoid when people are looking at me, I think, what are they thinking of me now, do they see anything bad. It's kind of sad really.

So, until yesterday, I really wasn't feeling confident about myself, going walking outside and all that.

Let Shane stay the night at the house on Saturday night cos he was going to his cousin's houseparty. He told me there was a live band playing there, our old friends from school, Liam, Prionnsias, and a few others. They always used to be on the guitars when we were at secondary school, very cool guys. Lost touch though. They told Shane they're only really trying to start the band now, so really hope they do well.

I've put in some more CVs for jobs, and I've to receive a letter from my tutor saying I'm studying this part time course so that I can receive some Jobseekers Allowance. I'm very broke at the moment, and it's tough to say the least. Feel very down a lot of days, but sure that's life.

So, the Special Needs Ed course has been moved to Wednesday nights, which is where I'll be heading tonight, can't wait. They split the class in two, so should be 15 people with me. Looked at the notes the last two days really, and last Tuesday week, so kind of know the stuff. Not really worried about it.

Yesterday was really good though, it was lovely for most of the day. I met with my beautican Michelle, and got the face waxed and had to get the expensive face products cos my face was completely ruined without proper moisturiser and cleansers the past year. Got a discount on the waxing, but overall spent €90 on products and €31 on chin, lip and eyebrow wax. Keep thinking, I had to get it done. Ahhh, giggle!
After, I got ready to throw in a few CVs and met with Sandra for a gossip session, lol. Got chatting to Rosie as well, they're all good. They were trying to get me to take her pet hamster Gnasher from them soon, actually considering it. Really would love to give a pet some love, would love my own place with a dog.... A dream for now. :)
Then, had an hour with Shane before he went home, and got back to my place then, and cooked dinner.

It was Mairtin Antoine's birthday, and hoped there would have been a mass for him this week. Shane wasn't sure, so he did something personal last night to remember Mairtin by. I just said a little prayer. God, think it's been two years or so now, I think. So many teenagers dying of car crashes and suicides and murders. Life isnt fair at times.


Wednesday, 23 April 2008

Started my new course... And a quiet few days...

Thought I'd write a few bits before bed.
Should have been packed and asleep by now. Am visiting Shane's mum's house in Carraroe tomorrow for the night. Loadsa chat and fun with Shane and Ciarain :)

Had a few low days, but it was because I didnt have anyone around me. It can get depressing here on your own. But, been active since Sunday.
Met with Shane, and then Hazel gave us a lift to her place. Got to see Oisin for the first time in ages. He can walk, he can talk, and he can really go mad! Giggle.
Lovely child, I adore Ois! We went playing motorbikes and cars while Mummy was chatting away to me, Shane and Mairtin Terry.

Ah was lovely chatting to Mairtin as well. Poor guy, always working. He gave me a loan of his cards for a few days. Each card has an image on one side and a story on the other side. Its meant to make you focus on something other than your daily routine, so you have a calmer air about you. I've read two cards so far, am very into analysing things and making my own meaning out of things, so its really good.
He's good to lend me them for a few days, something else I like :)

Monday was Shop day, and got about €50 worth of essentials and food to keep me going for two weeks. Ah yeah, doesnt matter. A lot of money for someone not working, but hey.

Tuesday was course day. Yes, my Special Needs Education Cert course. It started at 7pm. I walked to town, and got a cab at 5:50pm, was there at 6:15pm (traffic was baddd). Paid €7, not bad.
There's about 30 people in the course, with 2 guys in it. Mainly chatted to the girls there. Got to know Mary, lovely person. Also (trying to remember some names...).. Roberta, Maire, Louise, Audrey, Theresa, Patrice, Maire, and I remember one of the two guys names, James. Didnt chat to the guys though.
Me, being totally quiet, tried to chat, so got on with Mary. We had to talk about the person sitting beside us (Mary), then we had to watch a video and chat to the other person about their thoughts of the video.
We had a break at 8:30, and got chatting to Patrice. We finished up by talking about different families, so that was interesting.

We finished early at 9:30pm and I chatted to Audrey and Theresa for a bit while I was waiting for Breda to pick me up.

I mentioned the word "study" to Breda, and she couldnt believe I used the word. Giggle. I was gonna study tonight, but ended up checking emails and all that. The usual.

Am planning on making a video soon again, so check Youtube from time to time.

Gotta wake up early, so I better get some sleep. But, have a look at this video I saw in class, you'll enjoy it.

"Do schools today kill creativity?" Ken Robinson, TEDTalks...

Night x

Friday, 18 April 2008

A few good songs I like, and a Cold bed...

Erm, think I'll tackle the Vlogs in the next few days, not feeling that confident about it yet. Finding it so easy to write my thoughts down on the laptop these days. Only last year, I would have rather wrote, with a pen, in my big rainbow journal... *sigh*. It's not seeing much work these days...

So, I'll be putting a few videos up (maybe just 2 for now, don't want to flood the place).
First off it Sam Sparro's video ""Black & Gold". It is such a catchy tune, I just love this sooooooo much!
"I wanna be next to you, Black & Gold, Black & Gold, Black & Gold...."

And another song I love is this band The Ting Tings and their song "That's not my Name". I had loved this song a while ago, but just didn't know the name of the band, was stuck in my head for a while. Their video is just so fun and bright and colourful :) See what you think...

So, I kept waking up thru the night, and it was freezing. Had turned off the heater, cos its not good for your health to be on all the time! And the duvet was quite small, Mum had taken the other duvet to wash it at home a week ago. This was on me, and I was still cold and kept covering it on, and no warmth. Was too stubborn to put on the heater (erm, ok, more like half asleep and lazy)....

Am up now and threw an old winter coat on the bed as well. But, it's still cold! Tis not good at all! :)

I'll write more later :)

Thursday, 17 April 2008

Attempts at my first video...

Well, am very proud of myself. I made my first video! Although there's no talking, just wanted to take the time to show my bit of "artwork" out.
Stomach's not been the best last two days, and not had much sleep. Mum thinks its the Galway water (I only had a tiny bit), am very sensitive to it because I had gotten ill with it last year. It had been contaminated with Cryptosperidium, so was very ill for a few weeks. Anywho, I SHOULD NOT drink the water! :D So ha to me.


Here's the loverly wuverly video of me, staring at the screen...
Enjoy x

P.s. The computer won't let me upload my own video! Ahh!
So, here it is... From Youtube :)

Wednesday, 16 April 2008

Trouble Sleeping...

I did it again...

This is the worst I've ever been. I just CAN'T sleep! At the back of my mind, I was overthinking things, and ended up listening to Muse and watching Youtube videos, and it's now 5:20am (YEUK!).

Always wanted to do VBlogs (Video Blogs to all you non-Bloggers), but first of all, I lost my first digital camera after 2 months of fun, and now I've no money to buy another one. But, I love to write, so I'll stick with this for now.

I miss my boyfriend.
Ollie, I miss you.

Ok, that's said. (giggle)...


There's a Daddy Longlegs crawling around my room for the past two hours. Here's a picture of it (from the Internet, not my imaginary camera...)...

Yup... And it's ticklish too! :)

Erm, I'm gonna die tomorrow... Oh sorry, in 3 hours time, when I REALLY have to get up (another YEUK!). Got some things to do in town in the morning, so I'm kind of worried about that. Well, at least I know I'll be able to sleep well tomorrow night (for sure).

Oooooh, I never thought of my friggin WEBCAM! It's a bad one, but it did the job for me months ago. Think I'm gonna set it up and take a pic of me and my baby Pig Eweie together... Say cheeeeeeseeeee...

Monday, 14 April 2008

Sunday with my coolest best friend :)

I'd a nice weekend mostly by myself in Galway. Everyone seemed to be busy, so it was ok. Decided to chill out to music really. Had troubles falling asleep a lot, Saturday night (more like Sunday morning), I couldnt fall asleep until 4:30am!

So, Shane didn't know that he would be woken early and dragged out by his mum to go to Galway. He told me that night he would arrive a lot later in the afternoon, so poor Shane was sitting outside while trying to ring me to wake me up :D Awww! Felt so bad for him... Giggle! He didnt mind at all :P

He helped me reorganise my bedroom! Theres a lot more space now, we moved the wardrobe and bed to different areas, he did most of the work tho. The poor guy, I kept saying 'Later', but he was persistant! He's the best! Wouldnt have been done otherwise, love it :D

We did a shop in Dunnes, got all the essentials for a lovely Chicken Pasta Bake. Gorgeous!!! :) I would do it again for sure.

Shane's Chicken Pasta Bake

Serves 2 to 4 people at €11.19 (all ingredients price proportioned)

Ingredients: *Fillet(s) of Chicken *Olive Oil *Salt *half an Onion (Red if possible) *1 Courguette *Pasta Quills *pot of Fresh Cream *Tomato Puree (paste or tin) *1 Red & 1 Yellow Pepper *Grated Mixed Cheese *Butter

*fillet(s) of chicken, into a pot of salt, pour in hot water to just cover the chicken, boil for 20 or until white;
*pot of a bit of olive oil, put in a half a thickly-cut onion & 1 thickly-cut courguette, to cook for a bit;
*another pot of pasta quills, hot water & salt &(or) olive oil, let them cook til soft;
*once chicken's done, keep water (now a chicken stock), take out the chicken & cut it to pieces, throw into pot of onions & courguettes, and cover wit at least half of chicken stock, let stock absorb into everything;
*after its absorbed a lot of the stock, throw in a pot of fresh cream & about 70g or so of tomato puree, stir til a bit thicker;
*thickly slice a Red and Yellow Pepper, and grate some mixed cheese;
*pour water out of pasta, throw in a bit of butter, stir & leave to absorb;
*once EVERYTHING's done, get a Parex or Lasagne dish, put everything into the dish, with mixed cheeses and peppers on top, and let it cook in the oven til cheese is slightly browned (depends, 20 to 30 mins);
*serve on its own, with a salad, or garlic bread :) Yum!

We had it with Garlic bread, I like doing fresh garlic bread, with bits of crushed Garlic meshed through butter, but had some Garlic rolls in the freezer, so didnt go into the bother :)

We were talking about all sorts of stuff that had been happening, and we went into a conversation about dreams as well, I dont know, but I like talking about dreams and wondering what they mean. He was telling me about Lucid Dreaming (when you get to direct your own dream). It means, when you realise in your dream that you're dreaming, you have the chance to direct it yourself. I told him I'd had some dreams like that. There was one where I kept going to the same part, because my brain wanted to take control, but I wanted to do different things. Am very stubborn, giggle.

We chatted to Breda there for an hour, was so cool. Her and Shane get on great, its just so tough staying friends with certain people that were in our group, just great Shane's a solid in my life, and Breda's too.

I got myself a bottle of Rose, and he had a big bottle of Bulmers Cider. We werent planning on gettin pissed, jus to have a good time. We love Cuba nightclub so much, so we decided to go there, hoped upstairs (the Rock floor) would be open, but no luck. We walked to the club, fresh air was good. Felt good in my top, skirt and boots, we forgot to bring his camera though :( Had a brilliant time though.

I had 2 Dbl Jagar Bombs & Red Bull & a shot of Mickey Finns, while he had 1 Dbl Jagar Bomb & R.B. & Mickey Finns. We were very happy jumping around the dancefloor altho all the tiney boppers were out (yeuk)! DJ Ferg wasnt that bad after all that, he played some really good rock songs as well as the poppy stuff, so happy out.

Decided to go Londis later on to stalk our cutie Lino there (he had a Big smile for Shaney this time, he he) :D We both got a roll & I just WANTED a Jambon, giggle. You'd think I was drunk :D

While we were walking home, Thomas rang us, so we met up with him & chatted til 5am. I let Thomas sleep on the couch, while Shane had his sleeping bag, gave them my pillows and got T a duvet. Was so glad T came to visit, hadnt seen him in so long :) I was fairly tipsy tho, giggle, cant remember what we were chatting about, just ate away at my roll...

Just spend today recovering & chilling out. Thomas had long gone, so both of us took out our laptops and checked videos and stuff out. Shane had said I was mumbling in my sleep, but he couldnt understand. Been worrying a lot about things, usually comes out in my dreams when I've had some drink. I had a brilliant time with my best friend tho. Shanie is the bestest!!!

Now, gotta try to do something with this room, theres too much stuff! Ekkk! ...

Courses Part 2

Just thought Id jot this down :)

So, I havent applied for the part time course yet, so am going to do that in the morning. Was feeling very un-proactive today.

Also, I've applied for a full-time PLC course in Health Care Assistant in Galway Technical Institute (GTI), which would be starting in September '08. Would need an interview, but should be no problem getting in if I do well in the Special Needs course. Both courses should look good on a CV if I were to go straight on to the workforce, or apply for a National Cert/Dip in any of these areas. Both websites are as follows:

Portobello School -
Galway Technical Institute -

Saturday, 12 April 2008

Courses in Galway

So, woke up at not such a good time today, 12pm. I am going to chill out for the weekend, and not worry about getting any sort of work until Monday. No point, would probably get sick with worry otherwise, and thats not good for Monday morning either.

Have just put a load of washing in. I've moved back in the city after the lovely stay with the parents. Was organising my old room here yesterday, have yet to hoover and further sort it out. Too many book, CDs, DVDs, ornements I want everyone to see, but you probably wouldnt see everything by the time I'm finished with it. It's quite a small room, used to the fact it has a single bed. Need an extension lead just to have the TV on (which I don't have right now), cos the TV at one end of the room, and the two plug sockets are at the other end. Lovely :)

So, I was researching a course I saw on the paper yesterday by chance. It's a part time Special Needs Certificate course with Portobello College Dublin. They're doing Regional part time courses, and there's one starting in Galway on the 22nd of April, next Tuesday week. The reason I was panicking yesterday was that it said in the paper it would be starting this Tuesday.

Since then, the receptionist has reached me and said the dates have changed, and I'm more than welcome to apply. It is quite a lot of money though(€967 for 14 weeks, one day a week), so Ive to make sure I can apply for a college course after this. It says I can go straight into the workforce with this course or even add a Diploma course with Portobello if I wanted, same amount of cash though. It's an opportunity anyways. Something I wanted to do for a long while.

Friday, 11 April 2008

'Léimigí Thart' - Des Bishop ('Jump Around' - House of Pain)

You'll love this!!!

Dún do chlab, dún do bhéal
Éist le mo scéal, má cheapann tú go dtuigeann tú, tá tú ag cur i gcéill,
Tá mé ag dul go nua Eabhrac, ceangal mé le slabhra,
Goile a mhac, ná bí (ag caint anseo???) i lár an tsamhraidh
(súistí búistín buaille beag a phústín???)
ná bí i do phleidhce, nó gheobhaidh tusa léice
Níl mé ag iarraidh a' éisteacht le do chac-bó
damhsa damhsa gan aon stró
buachaillí gránna, cailíní boga dána
Ní thugann mise aird ar na gardaí síochána
Ag an gCeathrú rua, Amach anseo faoin dtuath
léim anois léim anois léim anois go luath
má tá sé mícheart, má tá sé mícheart, is cuma liom, is cuma liom,
léimigí thart!

Léim thart! Léim thart! Léim thart!
Fág seo, éirigh as do pholl, is léim thart!

Léim, léim, léim , chuile duine léim, léim, léim,
gach duine léim, léim, léim, chuile dhuine léim, léim, léim

Freastalóidh mé thú ar nós John McEnroe
má shiúlann do bhean suas, buailfidh mé an hó!
Cá bhfuil do chlann, cá bhfuil do chairde, cá bhfuil an ceol, (suas in airde???)
Agus díreach (ar do thuiscint, tá mé ag rith???)
Má fheiceann tú mise, (b’fhearr duit???) bagairt a rá
Mar tá mé ar nós Tom Cruise sa scannán sin top gun
Ní stopadh tú mise leis an Shotgun!
Má dhéanann tú 's cuí go luath
Agus beidh tú i do staic
Ní éiríonn tú arís go deo, sin an craic
Anois mo stór, éist le mo ghlór,
amach ar an urlár ar nós Peigín leitir mór
má tá sé mícheart, má tá sé mícheart srl

Is mise an fear is fearr, so tá mé thar barr,
Ní fheicfidh tú mise i mo sheasadh (as an lár???)
Ná ag an deireadh ach an oiread an taobh eile don droichid
má thagann siad chomh fada liom, cuireadh mise iad,
amach ar an bportach, agus iad ag baint mhóna,
Déardaoin, De hAoine, De Satharn De Domhnaigh,
Suas suas ‘s síos agus ar ais arís,
Dún do straois, tá sé salach agus clúdaithe le smaois
(Do héadan bheidh caillte , an teallach sin duitse???),
Fainic thú féin nó ní thógfaidh mé uaitse
Má tá sé mícheart, má tá sé mícheart srl

Tá mo homies as Conamara
M'abhailies, m'abhailies as Conamara

Muintir na Gaeltachta, agus muintir na hÉireann freisin,
Tá an réabhlóid ag teacht go luath

Sin é, sin é, sin é , sin é [TRÉIG]

Wednesday, 9 April 2008

Tibet Protest at Trafalgar Square April 06, 2008

A friend sent me this video of the Free Tibet protest (he didnt video it, just thought it was funny). So sad, this event is supposed to unite people around the world. I feel bad for Tibet, but this isn't the way to change things.

Cailín na Gaillimhe (Galway Girl)

Bhuel de thug mé cos ar an siúlóid mhór
Thart ar lár an lae
Is de bhuail mé le cailín breá dathúil
Agus thosaíomar ag plé.

Agus n’fheadar é,
Cad a tháinig orm.
Lena gruaig chomh dubh
Is a súile gorm.

Agus thóg mé a lámh.
Thug mé rince di,
Agus phóg mé cailín na Gaillimhe.

Bhíomar leath-shlí tríd nuair a d’oscail an spéir
Níos déanaí ins an lae.
Agus rith muid síos chuig an árasán
Chomh bog an lae i-ay.

Agus n’fheadar é,
Cad a tháinig orm.
Lena gruaig chomh dubh
Is a súile gorm.

Ach thóg mé a lámh.
Thug mé rince di,
Agus phóg mé cailín na Gaillimhe.

Bhuel de dhúisigh mé agus mé liom féin
D’fhág sí mé i-ay
Le mo chroí bhríste bhí pian laistigh

Agus n’fheadar é,
Cad a tháinig orm.
Nuair a chas mé leis an gcailín sin

Tá feicthe agam gach uile rith
Ach ní a leithéid le cailín na Gaillimhe...

Tuesday, 8 April 2008

Visiting the Gorumna Islands

It's completely different from the busy streets of London. Wish I'd have a camera to take some photos and show you how lovely this place is.
My mum was telling me they were having such terrible weather since winter, and its only been nice the last two days. I wonder why... (smiling...)

Must be my little bit of magic...

The shoulder and back are in such pain since pulling those bags this weekend, think it's going to be a while before the pain goes away. Gonna take a relaxing bath to relive the pain tonight.

It's so nice to be home. The room was kept aired, so Id no problems sleeping there like I had before. Throat and nose used to be clogged up whenever I slept a night there. Got to sleep in til 1pm, feeling sorry for the boyfriend though. Sounds like work's really tough for him at the moment. Can't wait to hear from him when he gets to relax.

Mum made a gorgeous dinner, chicken tikka masala marinade, veg & mash potatoes. Yum! Missed proper food. All this takeaway and packet stuff where I lived before. Enjoying a lovely cup of Lyons Tea now while Ros na Run is on. Wish they didnt have subtitles on, annoys me.

I'll write some more soon. Hugs :)

EDIT: Here's an aerial view of Leitir Meallain...

Monday, 7 April 2008

Galway is SOOOOO cold!


Now I remember a reason I moved away...

Am after having 3 cups of Lyons tea and a slice of toast since landing at the pad in Galway city. The shoulder feels like it's been pulled from its socket to be honest, need a good massage. Don't know anyone that does shoulder massages though... :(

Am kinda tired, but ok. Closed the eyes for half an hour, but the urge to txt my friends here was so great, I went online to Meteor and txt everyone I could think of. Not many replied obviously, busy-ness of the Irish life and all that... That's ok.

My boyfriend was a good alarm this morning. Didn't sleep much though, wanted to be ready to go. He'd landed back from Cork for the weekend, all smiles and unshaven tired eyes. He got to see his first nephew Cormac, 1 month now. He took some photos of baby Cormac, very tiny and cute :) We chatted for a bit, but he was falling asleep :) We cuddled for most of the night...

Got the first train at 5:10am to Heathrow Airport Terminal 1 (there's 5, very confusing). Not sure what time we landed, must have been 6:45am or so. Ol helped me with the 2 really really heavy luggage bags as far as he could. We said our goodbyes, it was very tough. Kept my smiles up til then. He'd bought me a teddy Sheep from Cork as a surprise, I want to call him Eweie (giggle), but he likes the name Pig. We're still undecided... x

So, 2 airplanes, 1 bus, and a lift from my sister Breda, and I'm back in cold cold Contae na Gaillimhe. Had a tea and a little flapjack in London, and a tea and a packet of crisps at Shannon. Had a changeover at Dublin, but didn't pick up anything. They've added a lot of shop in Dublin Airport since I was there a few yrs ago. Very cool! Just zoomed through.

The parents want to see me tonight, so think I might travel back to Connemara for a day or two. I've this awful dread in my stomach, can't shake it off. Feel very lost. Hope it gets better this week.

Sunday, 6 April 2008

The Last Night in London...

Dear Bloggers and Blog Readers... :P

I had a nice weekend mostly on my own in London. Decided not to go sightseeing, but I dont regret it. I've seen quite a bit of London, and want to see more when I eventually return to visit again.

Friday night, I felt like going to yummy Wagamama's, but when Angie decided to ring and meet up, I knew I wouldnt be going to my one of my favourite restaurant. Instead, we decided to go around Angel. We checked out this buffet restaurant there, and chilled out there, chatting. Was dying for the night though, we kinda figured out I've some sort of intolerance to either spicy or fatty foods. Get this huge pain in my stomach, thinking I'm about to pass out, can't breath. Gonna check it out at home.

Ended up walking around Angel again Saturday, and got myself drunk that night in my room. Sad but true.

So, I've told the parents and the other sister I'll be home tomorrow. They're happy about it. No-one else knows. Thomas was over in London this weekend (he's an old friend from school, and my second cousin). He kept meaning to meet up with me, but he was a very busy guy. It's ok, he he, he doesn't know I'm going home ;)

My two luggage bags are so heavy. Think I'll leave a few things at Ol's, am bound to be over during the summer. It will be a while before I'm back again to be honest. Going to try and figure myself out. Life's been such a mix up the last few months, so gonna try to find out what makes me happy. I'm my own person, and kinda lost that.

Am over at Ol's at the moment, he's not arrived back from Cork yet. His flight is coming to London now. Cooked a lovely dinner, and chilling with the TV with a Twirl bar. Yum! This time tomorrow (it's 22:15) I will be in Galway... :)

Friday, 4 April 2008

A Night at Avenue Q...

Hey all.

I had a lovely few nights now with my boyfriend, starting off with Sunday night at the cinema.. Met up at Cineworld in West India Quay to see "The Orphanage", with Guillermo Del Toro as the Executive Producer. Its based in Spain, all Spanish actors, so the movie comes with English subtitles. Del Toro also directed the movie "Pan's Labyrinth" and "The Devil's Backbone". The Orphanage was creepy at parts, I jumped at a few bits, but thought it'd be scarier. Ollie didn't want to see it 'cos he freaks out at scary movies, but he wanted to bring me 'cos I couldnt wait to see it, and I was moving home soon :) Sweet..

We had some lovely Indian food after that in Westferry, and then travelled back. I loved freaking him out! :D

As you all know, I went exploring London on Monday, and then Ol cooked us dinner that night. We both like pasta and chicken, so he made a yummy dinner for us :)

On Tuesday, I was to meet my friend Angie from St. Pancras station, 'cos she was just back from Ireland, but when I heard she'd landed there while I was waiting for the DLR, I just gave her easy instructions to follow to make her way home. I wouldnt make it to her for another hour at least. So instead of meeting her, I'd gone to my beauticans. My skin was very irritated for a week, and it was really bothering me. Feels a lot better now since, really needed that. Supposed to cut down on chocolate and drink tons of water, both of which I've done well with since Tuesday. Very proud :) .. So, I made dinner for Ol that night, first time in months to be honest. My cooking skills have gone a bit rusty, but Ol is a good teacher. He said he loved it, so I'm happy :D

On Wednesday night, we went to The O2 Dome in North Greenwich to see "Drillbit Taylor", very funny I have to say. Heard some bad reviews about it. Owen Wilson could have been a bit funnier, but the young lads were great in it.

Had a lovely Starbucks Hot Chocolate as well, while he had his Hot Milk with Caramel..

Thursday was our last night together on a date, and the title of my blog.. We went to the theatre to see "Avenue Q"... We met up at Leicester Square, where we first got some food at a noodle bar.. He'd ordered a Lemon Chicken and Rice, while I got my fave Sweet & Sour Chicken and Noodles. He hated his, tasted like Washing Up Liquid! Giggle. Poor guy, I shared mine, but he only ate some..
Then, with half an hour to the show, we went looking for an ATM! :) Found one..
The show was brilliant, they're puppets, but with a lot of naughtiness ;) Oh, the puppets did it for me.. Ol just wasnt turned on tho... Giggle ;) :P

I couldnt help it, but I was a bit emotional last night over moving home. I couldnt hide what I felt. If this is how hard it's going to be for the next few years, of course its going to feel this way. But, he tried to calm me down, make me see that if it makes me happy, I've got to do it. It still hurts though, he has a piece of my heart...
(Yeah, throw up time!) :)

Now, I just ate his garlic bread while he's at work, and gonna take a lovely shower. Ollie, Good Luck on travelling to Contae Corcaigh this weekend x

Gonna cheer myself up with a lovely Wagamama's Chicken Katsu Curry in Angel tonight, see my friend Thomas from Ireland on Saturday (hopefully), and get ready for my move home on Sunday... I cant wait to see Shane and all my friends and family again. Enough of my boring-ing-nes-nesssssss :D Hugs x

Tuesday, 1 April 2008

Wandering around London

So, I got to see a little more of London yesterday.

It's so good to know the tubes (Underground) now, cos you know your starting point then. If you're interested in saving money while you're in London, its worth picking up an Oyster Card. You can get these at any tube station, or pick them up online. All you do is top up your card at any station and you can use these cards on any tubes or buses in London. Your bus fare goes from £2 to 90p, and tube prices fall as well. Also, if you've used it for the day, it'll stop charging at around £6, so its very handy for travellers. And you get to keep it and use it next time your over! :)

Started off on a walk from the boyfriend's place to Canning Town, and got the tube there to Holborn.
Had a walk down to Covent Garden and up Neal Street, cos I had to pick up my lovely MAC foundation and concealer, love that stuff.
On Neal Street you can also find photos of Banksy's work, which are already ready to be hung on your wall. A guy there sells them everyday outside, Small £20, Medium £30 & Large £40. Banksy doesnt sell them himself, unfortunately. If you havent heard of him, Banksy is a well-known pseudo-anonymous English graffiti artist. Here's some images of his work..

After looking at the photos for 10 minutes or so, I had to pull myself away and wander down southwards towards Lyceum to the Waterloo bridge, and walked beside the river eastwards to the Shakespeares Globe theatre, where I went on a 40 minute tour of the Globe itself. Learnt a lot about the history of the theatre, and they have a great museum there as well, where you find out about the plays they had there, the costumes and materials they used, the way they used the stage to show a Heaven, an Earth, and a Hell. Also, the music they used at the time, and the way they must have built the Globe at that time.

Afterwards, had a lovely ice cream cone from Mr. Whippy, yayyyysssss! Walked then eastward again towards London Bridge station. Theres a lot of great shops and resturants under some of these bridges I never knew about, and a lot of Starbucks Coffee shops everywhere :) I <3 Starbucks Hot Chocolate! Gorgeous!!! :)

So, it was a great day. Will do more again soon. Maybe today, havent decided what to see yet. Spending the few nights with the boyfriend until he has to go home on Friday, its nice :)

Sunday, 30 March 2008

I'm Leavin', on a Jetplane...

La la la.
That song is so cool...

So here it is. I'm flying home. Gonna keep it a surprise to my family and friends this time, I'll wait for the right moment to tell them. It's going to be soooo great! Big smiles.

Looking for work was very hard, and think I just gave up on looking the last few days. For most of you, you might think of me as sad, but to be honest, I did London. Its definitely not for the weak. Loved my only job here, working in a busy Pub & Restaurant on the North of London, but the only problem was the weekends. They were long, they were very late, and you never got a weekend night off. Imagine, no weekend night off in London for 5 months. It wasn't funny. It's great people can do that, but I don't go out much, and I really wanted to go out in London, with friends.

Who to go out with though, as well. When you work in a place like that at the start, its very hard to make friends. All you have is your work group, and they're all in the same situation. A few of my work colleagues Did get a weekend night off since I started, and honestly it wasn't fair..

So, that's my rant of my last job. Anyways, I'm flying to Shannon on Monday morning the 7th of April at 9.05am. Apart from my sister Roisin, my boyfriend Ollie and one of my close friends Angie, no-one else knows. For now...

Happy, but sad too. I'm leaving one special person behind, and it hurts a lot.. x

Saturday, 29 March 2008

Photo of Barcelona (Feb '08)...

Gonna see how big it comes up here. Was thinking of putting some up here, but if it's too big, might just leave it... Not sure how to size them down for this. Here's a nice one of me in front of La Sagrada Familia...

Friday, 28 March 2008

Limbo Land... Is there such a place?

Yes! And I've found it.

It's this place, where you're stuck, you dont know where you're going. People tell you to enjoy it, but how can you, when nothing is happening. I sent the CVs, I checked the agencies, I got this stupid cough that won't seem to go away, I live in a little box room with a bed, my phone/radio, and some amount of luggage.
My boyfriend has things to do, he has a life. That's cool.
Just wish I could feel better and do things too. I don't care, have to get out of bed tomorrow and explore London, even if I'm ill.
Being alone isn't actually a nice feeling most of the time.

The Ideas I come up with that I never write down...

So today, I was having a nice chat with my "blindy" friend, Darragh, when we were talking about Self Service food where he works. He said he hates it when all these people come up to him trying to help him out, 'pointing' and shouting out where different types of food are. Then, being dragged to a table you didnt really want to sit at, because they pushed you to it.. And after all that, you could forget something, and be too embarrassed to get up again...

So, I suggested if and when blind people are working in a building with Self Service, there should be a metal or plastic overhanging board, with Braille printed on it, stating the different food there should be under the board. And, if any food's not on display, to cover it up.

He said, I should really look into that, but you know, me and ideas, they always go in and out of my head, and I never wrote them down. Its really simple stuff for blind people, and its not fair that these services are still not available or thought up for them. Especially liked the ideas I had for blind people and people in hospitals.

For example, there's one idea where if someone were in an ITU (Intensive Trauma Unit), and noone there to communicate with that they know, especially a young life, that if there was any way of sending a message without disruptting the equipment around the room. Basically, your brain energy gets less and less as your going because noone's talking to you to keep you alive. Its not the same when a nurse or doctor is trying to talk to you, cos its their job. They care, but to an extent.

If there was anyway to make a device that can send and receive SMS messages or even phone calls without bothering the ITU machines, that was be an accomplishment.

Another thing D brought to my attention, is that he's very impressed by the way I was "the first person ever to find a way of texting to a blind person so they could read it with any sighted assistance". Pretty big achievement. See, I found a way of texting to an email address when I was going thru school, being bored, and Darragh was usually 'studying'... Ha.

Anywho, think it was with Vodafone at the time. Thanks Voda! They helped a bit.

Thursday, 27 March 2008

Leona Lewis... You had me at OMG!

Could you believe it? This is a singer I never really liked from the start when her chart No.1 song played at my last job on Friday and Saturday nights. Leona Lewis, or that one my boyfriend refers to as the doggie from the Bus Eireann ad (yes, that doggie)...

She's made it to No.1 in the US Billboard! Straight up there! I'm shocked! Well, if the information is right, she's the 3rd British woman to top the Billboards since they first started.

Fair play girl! I still don't like your music, but here's to you...

His Galway Girl...

My Cork boyfriend was telling me of all the comments he was getting from having this video on his page. He should be proud, going out with a Galway girl and all...

What do you think guys? Giggle. x ;) Thats for you Ol :)

Recruitment Agencies.. Nothing going for me there....

Look, I don't have a qualification in any of this stuff. People give me these websites and there I am, thinking "God, I can't do this cos I honestly have nothing to my name but jobs in bars and shops"... Getting me more confuzzled..

Woke up at 1pm (but I WAS gonna wake up earlier), and going thru these agencies the last two days. Felt like crying. If anyone can hire a girl thats worked in 1 bar, 1 shop and a few food jobs, with 1years cert in Multimedia Authoring, with a little experience in secretary work... Please pick me :(

On another note, I visited the Tate Modern gallery yesterday afternoon. Really loved it, especially the Surrealism part on the 3rd floor. Took a particular note of some of Pablo Picasso and Francis Bacon's work. Liked Picasso's "The Three Dancers", and an art video made by Maya Deren called "Meshes in The Afternoon". Used to love reading about dreams when I was younger, and these images came with the books, a lot of Surrealism. Watch these two parts and see what you think...

Something to think about :)

First day on the Blogging Job...

Hey there...

Haven't blogged in a good year or two, too much happening, and such little time. Whereas now, I've too much time and lost, mainly of my own doing.

My sister got me onto this really good song from an LA girl called Katy Perry, not sure now how to link Youtube stuff, so here goes...

I like her, she reminds me of Lily Allen and a tiny bit of Kate Nash. Still can't believe she's from LA...