Wednesday 1 April 2009

Needed a friend today

My weight...

It hasnt been my best friend, and I've ignored my problem since the breakup in July. But, a very good friend of mine joked about my weight on Monday night, and I've been upset about it since.
I gave up on the Yoga and Aquafit fairly soon after joining, hating routine was a part of it. Also walked for two weeks, but got sick, so stopped after. Been eating a lot too...
Then, once she mentioned about the weight, something triggered inside me... Hiding for so long, broken hearted. Guys don't even look at me, I'm a 'friend'.. I'm always a 'friend'..

Had a good cry today, and feel better. Tomorrow, the food in my cupboard is going to change. The walking will recommence, the water will be drank, the vitamins will be taken. The online guy's numbers will be deleted from the phone, and the onlne guy's MSNs will be deleted from my messenger...

Gradually and slowly, I will appear from my cocoon, and come out a gorgeous butterfly, with all my real friends at my side...

xxx

1 comment:

Lindi said...

You are a pretty girl.
You can get back into shape, now that you are determined.
I've struggled with my weigh all my life so I know how you feel.
Warmer weather is coming and it will be easier to go for walks and such.
Keep up your confidence and don't let the food pushers sabotage your efforts.